December 5th, 2008 Happiness That Exceeds Measure!
Today has been a rather bizarre day; despite it feeling odd, and many things seemingly wanting to go wrong; I’m actually in the best mood I’ve been in for seems like forever.
I started off the morning over-sleeping, and therefore rushing a shower, and trying to get dressed so I have enough time to drink my morning milkshake. Then on the way to school I slipped over on the grass (luckily no one saw), but I ended up with mud all down me, and feeling horribly wet. I have to admit though, although it wasn’t a particularly painful experience, it’s most gymnastic-type movement I have made in years! I went flying horizontally through the air… Brilliant!
Then I had Chemistry… Well, as usual not particularly well! It’s a failure on all accounts, and I’m actually cacking myself at the thought of the January exam. I seem to be averaging an “E” on everything I do – par the Stoichiometry, which was a U – so that has definitely got to change.
After that I had a free, where I completed some History work. I then volunteered to help out the Librarian lady; who for years I was convinced hated me… I realised quickly how much I wanted to sit and read. I actually miss just having the time to waste a Saturday doing nothing but sitting up in my bed, head in a book, being immersed into a world within my head. I miss that feeling when you get when you reach the end of a chapter and you’re left in amazement, and excitement for what’s to come.
Following that I had double Psychology; which was good. We didn’t do much, but it was good nonetheless. However, I found out that the school computers have once again broken my Memory Stick. It’s ridiculous; one would have imagined that there would be something in place or some sort of measure to protect the computers from viruses, but apparently not!
Lastly I had History. I think I can honestly say History as a whole is my favourite subject; I’ve been a “Science Geek” since as far back as I can remember, but there’s something about History that fascinates me even more than Atomic Structure, and brilliance of bonding. Above all, it’s a subject which I can have a good ramble in; and even if I don’t voice my thoughts in class or write them all down, I’m having “Mind Debates” about most things.
But seriously, today has been a brilliant day. I just feel so elated, and I’m not quite sure why. Like Prefect Duty earlier, I just wanted to dance and sing; and even the appearance of Sluggy couldn’t pull down my moods! Then after lunch, I held a meeting for a Student Democracy project which I’m co-running with someone; and even after twenty minutes of shouting at a collection of highly irritating Year Eights, I was still smiling.
I feel brilliant, and I love it!
As for the rest of this week; it’s been the usual mix of madness. As you’ll probably be aware now, I moved house on Monday. I can still say my room is an utter mess; but then again I haven’t got my bed frame or my bookcase from IKEA yet. I’m actually quite excited about the bookcase (but I think I’ve already mentioned this); but even so, an excuse to buy more books, and build up an impressive collection. Although, there’s a problem…
You see I have a few first edition Harry Potter books, and because they are first editions I’ve concluded that hopefully in the future they may be worth something; so they’re wrapped up in plastic bags away from the evils of dust and the ability to be damaged by me spilling water over them or something. But I can’t really have books in a collection of different bags on my bookcase without it looking untidy – a look I’m trying to avoid – so I have to decide on what to do there.
What a dilemma!
Other thoughts which have occurred to me since the move; Cupboards!
I’ve already explained this to a couple of people during a Free Period the other day, and I’m pretty sure that those people (Camille and Louise mainly), think I’m actually going more senile than they thought. You see in my previous houses the Kitchens we’ve had have been pretty rubbish; and horribly and pointlessly small to be of actually any major use. I mean cooking a dinner for more than three people was a near impossible task!
So now I have a kitchen which one can move about it, sit in, and actually prepare food in; and as a consequence there are more cupboards and drawers. Now on Tuesday for about half an-hour I was a lone in the house, and I was having a wonder and a ponder, and I stood in the kitchen and realised how brilliant cupboards are! I mean, they’re so useful! What’s more, is that when you’ve just moved house you’re not quite sure where everything is, so I have an excuse to open them all, and have a snoop. It’s brilliantly good fun.
I know, you’re probably wondering about my mental health at the moment, but seriously, all is well. It’s just it’s amazing how you realise how useful things are once you have them (not to say I didn’t have cupboards and drawers in my old house); it’s just that now there’s more.
Yeah, I’m going to shut up here about the cupboards.
On a more serious note however, on Tuesday or was it Wednesday? Oh, I don’t know, but I found another sign of old age… A grey hair!
Now this isn’t the first, and nor is it the second; in fact it’s probably the twelfth I’ve come across over the years; but just because I’m seeing more of them, does not mean it’s more acceptable; if anything it’s the opposite. I’m seventeen, not seventy! But even that’s a little harsh, but you know what I mean. I’m not bothered about having grey hair when I’m older, I actually think it’s quite cool in its odd little way (don’t ask me to explain why), but when I’m ay in my thirties at least! Not seventeen, not when I’m not even out of School! That is just not fair.
Then again, I have to wonder what exactly is causing this early onset of old-age; and yes I’m fully aware that “going grey” is a sign of stress, but I don’t feel stressed. Yes, well this week hasn’t been the best, but that wouldn’t explain a fairly long greying hair now would it, seeing as hair grows something like .5 mm a day!
Well, maybe soon I will start to qualify for OAP discounts! Which probably wouldn’t be too bad, now would it?
I joke, I joke… That would actually be terrible. I remember about two years ago when I was fifteen I had a horrible nightmare about being thirty (at the time this was an extremely scary prospect, in fact it still is); and I scared myself. A parent (eurgh children), I was married (I disagree with marriage), and I was stuck in a job which not only bored me to death, but I couldn’t even progress anywhere with.
It’s not that I fear growing up, because actually I’m sure it’s going to be quite fun, and interesting (par the bit where I can’t get a mortgage because the previous generation have cocked everything up for everyone else). With any luck I’ll be doing a job I enjoy (and I can see myself becoming a teacher – not a plan of mine – but something which I oddly enjoy, and people keep commenting about. Hopefully I will still be sane – that’s a long shot – but I think I can maintain being at least somewhat level-headed.
What I fear mainly about growing up would have to be failing at what I want to achieve. I can’t stand nor bear the thought of being dependent, useless and going no-where. Equally, I don’t want to end up with children just for the sake of it – I’m not a child-friendly person; I lack the patience for it all, and I know I’ll probably be too controlling, which I would hate to be. Controlling parents have to be high on the list of things that annoy me; so I wouldn’t want to annoy myself!
Hmm, I dithered there!
Another thing about this week is that I’ve come to realise how much I enjoy writing. I was having a think the other day about how much time per week I spend writing; and I came to the conclusion that it was a lot more than I have ever actually realised. Even when I’m not writing for work, or for the blog I write to myself. I have these odd random moments of inspiration where a topic will come to mind, I will write myself a mini-essay (well, about two pages long), on all of my thoughts on that particular thing. Then if it’s not something like that, then it’s just the more general and other bits which I write; say when I’m annoyed or feeling oddly emotional (I had one of those moments last night – although that was more probably due to the fact I was looking at old photos, and somehow they always make me emotional) and then I write about that.
I know quite a few people just assume that I spend all of my spare time on MSN and Facebook not actually doing anything other than updating when something pops into my mind; but I am really. Quite often, just writing to myself, keeping track of things, or writing essays of thoughts down… One of which I think I will post next week as I think it’s quite good (even if I do say so myself).
Can’t you just tell I’m in the rambling, writing mood?
What’s more is that I’m still happy and smiling. I have a massive grin on my face that I just cannot explain… It’s moments like this when I wish that I wasn’t so bloody reclusive! But that’s another matter altogether, which I daren’t get myself writing about now!
Hmm, anyways, I have a weekend of revision to do – I need to do something to improve those Chemistry grades! I refuse to fail, even if it means spending all of bloody Christmas day (not that I care for the day) doing endless questions. Wouldn’t hurt to also revise Biology too, which also apart from being comparatively easier than Chemistry seems to also be a bit of a no-hoper. Hmm, not good!
I apologise for the length of this blog; but then again this is what they used to be like. Every week was a full on ramble, rant, and over-view of absolutely anything that came into my mind. But it’s those long-winded, often confusing and most probably pointless rambles that I enjoy the most; and what got me the few thousand views on my Myspace Blog that I got!
Enjoy!
Samantha.
(http://www.thesamantha.co.nr)
Plus, everyone smile! It’s the way forward. And a quote to finish this up:
“Very little is needed to make a happy life.” – Marcus Aurelius Antonius (121 AD – 180 AD)
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