January 19th, 2009 The Wonders of Life: Sellotape!
There’s nothing better than Sellotape, seriously.
If it wasn’t for Sellotape many things wouldn’t be stuck together, we wouldn’t have the ability to “invisibly” adhere things together.
For me, the best use of Sellotape thus far, has to be that it maintains the ability for my laptop to charged, and therefore to function. You see my Laptop in some respects is like me. It’s not particularly old, but somewhat outdated; and at parts, falling to pieces.
Sellotape is magnificent in the fact that it enables me to use something which would otherwise be defunct, useless, and invaluable for reasons relating to it’s complete lack of function.
More importantly, I wouldn’t have the accessibilty that this laptop gives me. Oh yes, I have my desktop, and you would be crazy to think that I couldn’t survive without it! But the laptop… It’s hooked up to Sky, so I can watch films for free, I have 4OD installed so incase I miss an episode of E.R or a good documentary or so, I have a way of watching it, from the comfort of my bed too.
Even better than that?
I can write Blogs even when I’ve gone past my rule of being on the computer past nine o’clock in the evening. It may sound like a stupid, but it’s intact for a perfectly viable reason.
As for the moment,well, I feel inspired… Well, no, that’s the wrong word. I feel that right now, I could just speak, write, or communicate in some form or another (other than drawing, that wouldn’t get me or anyone else anywhere… Stick people are as far as my abilities go), endlessly, and completely freely.
Now, I know I’m going to go back to something I’ve already rambled on a bit about this week (and quite a lot recently), but it’s annoying me. I’m annoyed at myself, and I’m annoyed at how useless I am when it comes to communicating my true thoughts. I despair at myself at how often I realise that despite the fact I often bore people to death with my often useless, and annoying wordly insights, I don’t talk or communicate enough.
And since I wrote my last Blog, I remembered something… I remembered something very heavily related to this indeed.
A few years back, I cannot remember precisely I got annoyed at myself for doing this; and I thought, and realised, that I could still Blog and write, and have something out there for anyone to read (if they so choose), but I could do it anonymously. For about one or two posts, this brilliant plan worked… That is until I realised that I would have to censor myself so much, that it wasn’t worth the effort.
I would have to change my name, my location, the names of everyone in my life, names of the places where I go, and somehow not be as blunt with what was happening in my life, so it wouldn’t be so obvious that it was me.
The problem with this brilliant plan is that it wasn’t brilliant. In fact, it was pretty shit. As far as plans go, this is on the top of the list of the worst. For me, writing and blogging is anything other than fiction; if I want to read fiction, I can find that; and there are a collection of brilliantly written “online books” which already serve that purpose. Blogging, at least for me, is an actual outlet, and it shouldn’t be dressed in a fictional array of lies and falsities. More than anything else, I have a bad memory at the best of times, and trying to recall the pseudo-names I would have to allocate the main elements of my somewhat boring life, was seriously not worth the effort.
Therefore this plan ultimately failed. I tried to revive it a couple of times, but even so, it never went anywhere. I couldn’t write freely, knowing that if I slipped up, or wrote too close to reality that someone may come across it, and realise that I have this complete secret life within!
So even my attempts at being completely free with myself, despite going to every effort to hide my identity, I was useless, and complete failure.
The problem with my mood right now, is that other than writing to myself, and then reading it back over, I can’t do what I want to do. I can’t say what I want to say, and even if I retorted back to my terrible plan, it still wouldn’t work out!
So in short, I’m hopeless… But at least we all have Sellotape, eh!
Samantha.
(http://www.thesamantha.co.nr)
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